Sometimes I wish I can just dont give a shit about anything and move on with my life.  I wish I wasn’t born in Asian society that you need to behave well, you must have a good manner, respect elders, help out the family, etc.  Life isn’t easy when you came as the first generation to US and learn to become an Asian-American.  Some of the family/parents will still stay in the same old mind set and expect you to be like them.  Asians should learn how to appreciate instead of always telling you what to do or how to do it!!!!  I wish I dont care about anything then maybe my life would be so much easier.  I haven’t complain much b/c I have been holding it to myself.  HOWEVER, we humans do have a limit and once that limit is over then you kinda just don’t care and be whatever. 

So when I start studying for my GMAT, I’m just gonna focus only on myself and no one else.  I am not someone’s mom that can take of everyone’s life.  I’m not married and I dont have a kid so I shouldn’t be acting like a mom or being someone’s mom ALL THE TIME!  I need to enjoy my life and move on with my life.  I need to stop thinking for others because it’s only making me worse!!!  I have been trying to be happy and stay happy but sometimes you just can’t do it anymore.  It only gets harder and harder.  I don’t want to be someone’s gf that takes care of her bf all the time when someone can’t even take care of himself/herself.  I’m sick of being a care giver!  I’m sick of being nice!  I’m not aiming at anyone, just want let out what I’m really thinking in my mind. 

A good story from my Easter Sunday:

A man walked into our restaurant asking my mom to give him change from 2 $10 bills to 1 $20 bill.  He wans’t even a customer who is picking up his carryout!  My mom wasn’t sure what he is asking her so she asked me to go help him.  Then I explained to my mom that he wanted change and she said okay.  It was a crazy busy night at the restaurant.  And this is our conversation: 

Man: I want to change these 2 $10 bills to 1 $20 bill.

Me: (Thinking weird, why does he want to do that?  Usually ppl break their bills smaller)  Okay.  (I gave him a brand new crispy $20)

Man: Thanks (Turned around really fast and came back really fast)  No!  You didn’t give me a $20, you gave me a dollar (which is all crumble together!!!)

Me: (F…. Furious!!!!  Don’t be f…. lying in front of my face!)  I gave you a $20, Sir!

Man:  NO!!!  You didn’t give me a $20.  (Start taking money and things out of his pocket)  You want to search me?!?!?!

Me: NO!

Man: Why don’t you open the drawer and count the money and I bet you have 20 dollars more in your drawer.

Me: (Smile @ him)  NO!  (Thinking why would I want to count my money in front of you?) Why would I want to search you/count money from my drawer?!?!  I know I gave you a $20 so don’t f… lie to me!  (Yes, in front of all these customers, mah bad)  Let me call the police and I will have him search you.  Then we will deal with this when the police gets here and if I’m wrong, I will double your money!

Man: You know what?!?  Forget it, I don’t gave a sh*t about this $20, I make $40/hr.  (Start walking away)

Me: (why are you scared?!?!)  I don’t care how much you make, I know I gave you a $20, so let’s just call the police now?!?! 

Man didn’t say a work and hurried out and sped away!!!!  LOL 

What a joke right?!?!?!    He is messing with the wrong girl!  I just told my mom to be careful in these few days!  I do have to give him a credit…it’s like a magic!!!!!  LOL….

Yeah..that’s about it for now.  Same old story for me.  I worked and worked.  Other than that, I went to JT concert @ Allstate Arena!  A pretty good show. I even took a pic with one of JT’s dancer.  I will post that once I get them uploaded to my computer. 

O yeah, I was so embarrassed yesterday buying lottery tickets!  I went to 7 Eleven on Maple and Belmont last night after work.  I asked for $10 quick pick mega lotto.  The first guy asked for my ID so I showed him my driver’s license, mumbling to himself, then asked his boss to come and take a look at the ID.  They are both Indians so you figure they would be at looking at Asians’ IDs.  But NO~!!  His boss asked me bunch of questions!  Below is the conversation:

            HIM:     “Do you know your license expire within a year?” 

Me:       “NO”

            HIM:     “Do you know you renew your license every 4 years?”

            Me:       “YES”

            HIM:     “Why is your license expiring one year from the issue date?”

            Me:       “Mmm good question, I’m not sure!”

            HIM:     “Mmmm…you don’t know?”

            Me:       “Oh wait, I know, I moved last year so I went and got my address changed!”

            HIM:     “Okay…”

            Me:       “Mmmm…wait, you don’t believe that’s me?!?!?!”

            HIM:     “No..because you look so young!!!!”

Okay!  They finally let me buy them.  I was about to show them all my cards!  I can’t believe you get carded for buying lottery tickets!!!!  What is the legal age to buy lottery tickets anyway?  I guess I should be happy to look young but I’m also very embarrassed!!!!  Last time got carded for the rated R movie and this time got carded for lottery ticket!  What the heck!?!?!?!?!

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!!!!

Once again, nothing exciting!!! =) Still alive!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!! 

Each year gets better and better.  New year resolutions, new wishes, and new job.  What else can you ask for when you have everything!

BTW……………..

Today is our (Allen & I) 8 year anniversary!  Yes, it’s been a long time!  We hope to continue our great relationship!!!!  It’s hard to find someone who you care alot and that someone cares about  you as well.  When you do find that someone, make sure you appreciate and cherish for everything you have.  This is how to continue your healthy relationship.  Of course there will be ups and downs but you go through those challenges together and grow together.  I am grateful for everything Allen has brought to me.  Thanks hon!  He took me to a really nice Prime Rib Restaurant in downtown called Lawry’s.  They got the best prime rib, you should go try it out when you get a chance!!!!  Here are some pics to share with you:

Yummy Prime Ribs with creamed corn and homemade mashed potatoes

Prime Ribs with mashed potatoes and lobster tails

HI GUYS!!!!!! I AM STILL ALIVE!!!!!

I know I haven’t been updating xanga for like forever!!!!  I have been really really busy with my life.  Our family opened a restaurant in Lisle so I have been helping out over the weekends.  I got a new job and it is still in downtown.  I am becoming anti-social bc of working all week!!!!  I miss all my friends and I hope to catch up soon.  Don’t think I forget about you guys.  Here are some pics to show:

Weirdest dream last night that made me woke up with a bad migrane!!!!

My coworkers and I went to lunch at the cafeteria in the basement.  After we done eating, I saw these 3 asians speaking Chinese.  So I start talking to them and ask them where they from and blah blah blah.  We were talking for a long time and finally my coworkers decided not to wait for me and went back to work.  2 hours later, my boss called me and asked me where I was and why am I still outside.  I heard weird noises in the back (sounds like ppl are running around~).  Then I told him that I will be back to work.  He replied, “Oh…dont come back…global warming….I’m okay…I”m happy~!!”  Ookk..I thought that was weird and told him that I will be rite back.  As soon as I walked out the place, I saw no one on the street but lots of ppl hiding under the shades.  They were screaming at me telling me not to go under the sun!!!! I didnt know exactly why until I saw someone walked into the sun and started to melt.  I got soo scared so I had to keep on hiding under the shade and found my way to the other group of people.  There were emergency news on the radio telling everyone not to go under the sun at all!!!!  We were under the shade for a long time to wait for the metra to pick us up.  When we got picked up, we had to cover all the windows so the sun won’t get inside the train. 

Yeah..the whole dream is just WEIRD!!!! I was running and thinking that I will die soon!  Alrite…that’s it…just wanna share my weird dream~

Excuse me my friends.  I really hate ppl who talks shit behind my back and it’s not even true!!!!!!  That person really has nothing better to do but to create more and untrue drama.  This is what she wrote on friendster:

I truly dislike fake people…especially those you fake friendship with you to get into your brother’s pants behind your back. That’s the most appauling thing to do…especially when we’re supposed to be adults and not children in High School in our mid-to-late 20′s now! What’s funnier is the faker doesn’t have the nerve to not even confront you about it, but instead hides behind others. Way to show you’re mature. This message originally named no names…but since you feel guilty than, this message is for Kelley who doesn’t know how to be an adult…but constantly hiding behind someone else. F***ing grow up and confront me if you have an issue with me! And no, I refuse to take this bit down. It’s call freedom of speech! It’s my 1st Amendment Right.

Anyway…f… those ppl who doesnt know me well enough.  Excuse my language.  SAD!!!!

Camping Trip early July~

FIRST DAY:

Peter n Weilun chillin~

Ben is da winner of ROCK CARRIER!!!!!

Everybody is BBQing my meat!  YUM!!!

Me n mah cuz, Jen!  Thanks for coming!!! ^_^

Yaya…I’m posing for da pic

SECOND DAY:

Poor Ayc.  Stupid Kuopc won’t let Ayc have ANY!!!  SOUL MIN!

Canoe Site, looks pretty nice!

Yaya….I’m getting good @ taking the pic of myself!  Except Ayc won’t get outta mah way!

Team 1: Ben n Danny

Team 2: Weilun n Peter

Team 3: Me n Allen

Team 4: Chun Ho n Jen

Result of 8 miles Canoe:
1st place – TEAM 2
2nd place – TEAM 3
3rd place – TEAM 1
4th place – TEAM 4

Props to Chun ho for taking care of my cuz!!!!!! 

It was alot of fun guys!  We should definately do it again!!!!!  CHEAP N FUN!!! WHY NOT????

Lots of thanks to those who came out for my b-day last Friday @ Buzz.  Even tho, I was out early but I truly appreciated!!!!  I try to stay sober but it was too hard with a shot here and there.  Also, thanks for those who came to my BBQ.  It turned out great even tho there is heavy rain!!!  My first B-day inside the garage!!!  I feel so special~  I turned 25!!! 

I will post my b-day pics later when I receive all the pics from people.

This is sad!!!!  I think I only update like once a month now.  Getting lazy!!!!

I’m starting to workout again.  Hope to lose 10lbs by the end of summer!!!!!  So good luck to me!!!

More pics:

My cuz’s 13th bday~

My cuz n her friends…n of course my lil bro Daniel~

Big bro and sis

Isnt this such a cute pic~  They all look so CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Party @ Cellar~

Do I look like monkey?????

Hot Tina n Cute Lulu

I’m sooo red!

BBQ~

Chef MEOW~!!!!!

Yummy!!!!!  Dont you think?

Dont they look like twins???

Sum n Candy (thanx for coming~)

Other than these pics.  Work is stressful and crazy b/c my boss AGAIN had a surgery so he was off work all week.  I had to do EVERYTHING!!!!!!  Oh well, I guess dat’s work.  So why do we work all the time?????  Why do we have to work for others????  Why dont we work for ourselves????  Dont you think the society trains us to work for others instead of starting your own company???  I know this sounds sad but I really DON’T want to work forever!!!!! 

Okay..enuff venting!!!